Beautiful flowers

I have reached a point in my life where I believe I have nothing...nothing that would allow anyone to love me. NOTHING. And I cannot really live all my life..always enduring, always being pushed to the brink of sadness. I don't want a miserable life. I need happiness...really really badly. More badly than I want fame, wealth or anything. Is that too much to ask for everything life has hammered me with?

At such times, I have no consolation. Who knows the future? Maybe life is meant to be difficult and sad for some people. I don't know. I don't want my life if it is going to be just misery and sadness. I found this quote in Mulan and pray that someday I will find happiness.

The flower that blooms in adversity is the most rare and beautiful of all.

My, what beautiful blossoms we have this year. But look, this one's late. But I'll
bet that when it blooms, it will be the most beautiful of all.